cosmic_llin

So, I have reached that great and magical milestone. Quarter of a century. One box up when I next fill in a survey. I am twenty-five years old.

( Ramblings about my life, ahoy! )

Also, just to say, there are several things I intend to reply to, but they're all in tabs on my laptop, and my power supply is broken. New one should be arriving soon, and in the meantime, I'll try to remember what I was going to comment on!

Thanks for all the good wishes guys. Knowing that you all care is a real help. :)

I'm less than ok but coping. Being sad sure seems to take up a lot of energy.

This seems as good a time as any to mention that I am doing fandom_stocking again this year. It's a fun exchange where everyone has a post that's their 'stocking' and people can leave ficlets, icons, picspams, good wishes, whatever in the comments. The comments are screened until the reveal in January. I did it last year and it was really fun, so y'all should get one!

My stocking is HERE.

Three days into a new year already - gosh!

Christmas, as expected, was a bit upsetting and miserable, but had some lovely bits! Quite a few people got me presents to share with carawj (thank you, those people, for cushions, teapots, spice racks etc! :D) and my brother got me a Davros cookie jar, so, awesomes. And then when I got back to London we had a little Christmas of our own and I had a stocking with jelly beans and bubbles and poetry and biscuits and it was very lovely. :)

As to my feelings on Doctor Who... mostly disappointment and betrayal. I might post properly another time.

So anyway... 2010, eh?

Where I am now is nowhere near where I imagined myself this time last year. And 2009 in a lot of ways was a difficult year, but it was also a year filled with loveliness and awesome, and one in which I think I've grown a lot and learned a lot of things about myself, so I'm counting it as a win overall. I have a lovely home and girlfriend and a wonderful circle of friends both near and far who mean the world to me, and if I don't have a job I love, I at least have one that pays the bills and lets me wear what I like and listen to my iPod in the office, which could be a whole heap worse.

I'm not sure I want to make a list of resolutions, but as a general thing I want to spend more of this year doing things that are important to me, and I want to make more progress towards my goal of making a living from writing. Although technically I do that already, it really doesn't count.

Today I'm sitting in our nice tidy flat, we've shopped and eaten proper food, I've been doing creative things all day and even if I haven't made the best possible use of the Christmas break, I have really enjoyed it. So I think this is a good way to start the year. *nod*

1. OMG, how hot was Penelope Wilton back in the day? http://community.livejournal.com/dw_daily/16860.html
2. Yesterday was the Sarah Jane gang trip to the panto - the Sladen herself was magnificent, the rest of the show was... well, I've trashed it here: http://girladventurer.blogspot.com/2009/01/peter-pan-comparison.html Although actually I don't like some of the sentences in there, I might go back and edit... Anyway, the show wasn't much cop but I still had an awesome day!
3. Colin Baker should drag up more often. Not that I like it or anything.
4. I've had a weird sore throat for over a week now, and I'm starting to wonder if it might be tonsilitis or something.
5. Weekends are much too short.
6. Mum Update: She's finished with chemo for now, which is nice. She's on some hormone treatment that makes her legs act weird but is otherwise much easier, apparently. So we're waiting to see how that goes but it sounds like her doctors are quite pleased with her progress.
7. Must remember to give blood. Ooh, but if this sore throat is actually something, I might not be allowed... Well... I'll leave this sentence anyway to remind me later.
8. I need a Bonnie icon! It's ridiculous that I don't already have one.
9. Going to see Mandy Patinkin in concert on Tuesday, Sash got tickets! But aargh, it clashes with my piano lesson! Oops...
10. There is no number ten.

I'm back in London!
When I got into Euston I was so happy I nearly cried... I'm such a dumbass.
But work aren't giving me any shifts because business is bad, and they haven't paid me for the shifts I did before I left... so I'm in London with no money, so as usual I can't leave the house or buy anything, or indeed eat anything but pasta... So pretty much as usual.
Oh, everything was looking so good for a while there... I had a decent medium-term temping assignment and evening work, I was really getting stuff together. *sigh* And now it could be ages before I have work again. I obviously had to go home, but the timing sure could have been better.
I'm so sick of this. I just want a regular income that's enough so that I can have fun sometimes and put a bit away for a rainy day. But now I'm afraid to apply for things because I don't know when I'll be needed at home.
Although, Mum wants to have a go at managing without me there and see how it goes, so I'm in town for at least a couple of weeks, and I may only be going up at weekends. And she's encouraging me to apply for graduate jobs, so I guess she doesn't want to shake up my life too much...
So I'm doing that, but I'm not quite sure how I'm going to get to any potential job interviews without any money for transport. We'll see.

The silver lining in all this cloud is my friends. I've been so touched by how great everyone has been. Thank you all for your supportive comments, offers of cake etc! penguin2, thank you so much for being all wise and stuff, and for sending me lovely things! ladyvivien, you are an angel, thank you for all your calls!

Housemates are out tonight, so I'm going to try and spend the evening writing, since that's a part of my life I've been neglecting quite badly recently. I really want to get going with it again.
I'm certainly not going to do what I did last night, and resolve to spend the evening writing, and then instead eat peanuts and chocolate and watch the whole of Caves of Androzani, no sirree!

Woah, I can't believe I haven't updated this thing since July.
A lot has happened since then, and maybe I'll blog about that another time.
I'm back in Wales right now, for the first time since June. When I phoned my mum the other day, she told me that she has been diagnosed with cancer. They're still doing tests but it looks very serious.
So.
Seems a silly time to start posting on LJ again, but there we go.
I think my life is going to get weird now. I want to try, as much as possible, to keep my normal life in London going. I'm looking into transport costs for travelling up and down. It looks like I may be spending a lot of time here running my mum's business while she's in hospital, but I still want to get back when I can. It's funny how I've only lived in London for four months, but it still feels more like home than here right now. I don't want to just end up stuck here forever because some bad shit happened. But obviously I want to spend time with my mum while I can.

Also, I haven't been following my flist at all this summer, since I've had no home internet for quite a while. I'm online again now, so if you've been doing anything exciting, or even if you haven't, mention it now, I'm interested!