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[cosmic_llin]

It shouldn't be exhausting to psych myself up to answer one LJ comment.
Sometimes I feel like, if I post something, anything online, it tells the world that I'm awake, and then people will want me to do things. And then I get weirdly afraid and don't answer my emails for days.
I feel like the only reason I'm still going right now is because nobody has told me to stop.
Things aren't nice in my head at the moment.
Bizarrely, one of the things keeping me going is Bonnie Langford. At times of stress my obsessions get more... obsessy. Nice to get away from the real world, I guess. And at the moment it's all about Bonnie.
Deep breaths. I know it's going to be all right. I just wish it was all right now.
Right. Early night. Big Finish audio. Fresh start in the morning.

Comments

[penguin2.livejournal.com]

Eek! Now I feel bad for asking you - in my reply to your comment Over There - when's the best time to ring. Um, just ignore it, 'k? I'll SMS and you can just answer (via whatever medium) when you feel like it :-)

[cosmic-llin.livejournal.com]

Aww, it's ok! Don't feel bad! It's different when it's you, anyway. ;)
I found your message - I didn't even know we had voicemail! As for good times to ring, morning would have been better, but now I'm working mornings, and some evenings, which is annoying, because those are the times that are proper times for you! But I'm not working all evenings, in fact nothing now until the end of the week. And weekend mornings I'm not working. So actually there's quite a lot of scope there!
Feeling a lot better today! How are you?

[penguin2.livejournal.com]

Well, you know how I am and I know how you are now - that was a lovely phone chat earlier!

However, I see no writingseseses from you in my inbox... :P :P :P

Go relax with Bonnie!

[doctor-dasha.livejournal.com]

Oh, poor Llin! For what it's worth (and I realize it might not be worth much, since you barely know me), I think it's perfectly fine to let things slide for awhile. Just ignore your email (including the one I just sent you) for a few days. There is nothing wrong with that. (After all, e-mail will still be there whether you check it once an hour or once a week.) Do something fun, instead. Recharge your batteries.

Obsessing on Bonnie Langford is a nice way to get away from the real world. Don't you love how she's sliding down dirty, rocky slopes in "Time and the Rani," yet she never gets even a speck of dirt on her white pants? If that's not an escape from reality, then I don't know what is. :)

Now, go have fun with Bonnie, and forget about the rest of the world for awhile. You are one of the hardest working webmistresses I know, and you DESERVE a break!

Re: Go relax with Bonnie!

[cosmic-llin.livejournal.com]

Thanks! And it's always worth hearing encouraging words, even from people you don't know that well!
Haha, that is funny in Time and the Rani. Oh, Bonnie... *indulgent smile*
Hope you're having a nice week!

[seti-fan.livejournal.com]

No demands. Just offering a quiet hug and offer of reassurance or someone to talk to if you need it. I'm sorry things are so stressful and draining for you right now. As you said, better days are coming. If you need anything in the meantime, feel free to write (or call. Jess has my number now.)

(((((((Llin)))))))!!!

[cosmic-llin.livejournal.com]

((((((Cass))))))
Thanks! I'm feeling a lot better now.
Ooh, Jess has your number...
I need your address, actually, I think I lost it...
Maybe I'll email your for it - I know you're in my inbox somewhere, but I lose track...

[ladyvivien.livejournal.com]

*cuddles* it will be OK, I promise. And I'm here any time, OK?

[cosmic-llin.livejournal.com]

:) Thanks. You are super! In fact, , because hanging out with you has been one of the bright spots of my time in London so far, where otherwise it might well have been pretty goddamn boring and lame and miserable. You rule!

[silly-cleo.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon. I'm sorry. *hugs* I know we've just barely met but this too shall pass, just hang on. And wallow in Bonnie, sometimes the brain has reasons for coping as it does.

She's gonna be in a panto in Richmond as Peter Pan you know.

[cosmic-llin.livejournal.com]

:) Thanks. I'm hanging in there! I'm glad to see that things are looking up a bit for you too!
I'm so desperate to go to that panto. Simon Callow is in it too!

[silly-cleo.livejournal.com]

Hopefully they're looking up all round! :D I think we'll both feel a lot better with a bit more bloody MONEY. Er. Maybe not bloody, but money anyway.
I'm so sad I won't be here! Sadly, it's rather high on my priority list if i get back in time in January. ;)