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Oct. 12th, 2008 11:00 pmIt shouldn't be exhausting to psych myself up to answer one LJ comment.
Sometimes I feel like, if I post something, anything online, it tells the world that I'm awake, and then people will want me to do things. And then I get weirdly afraid and don't answer my emails for days.
I feel like the only reason I'm still going right now is because nobody has told me to stop.
Things aren't nice in my head at the moment.
Bizarrely, one of the things keeping me going is Bonnie Langford. At times of stress my obsessions get more... obsessy. Nice to get away from the real world, I guess. And at the moment it's all about Bonnie.
Deep breaths. I know it's going to be all right. I just wish it was all right now.
Right. Early night. Big Finish audio. Fresh start in the morning.
Sometimes I feel like, if I post something, anything online, it tells the world that I'm awake, and then people will want me to do things. And then I get weirdly afraid and don't answer my emails for days.
I feel like the only reason I'm still going right now is because nobody has told me to stop.
Things aren't nice in my head at the moment.
Bizarrely, one of the things keeping me going is Bonnie Langford. At times of stress my obsessions get more... obsessy. Nice to get away from the real world, I guess. And at the moment it's all about Bonnie.
Deep breaths. I know it's going to be all right. I just wish it was all right now.
Right. Early night. Big Finish audio. Fresh start in the morning.
