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You know, being in Petersburg is really making me think about my future.
Everyone here is always talking about their careers and stuff, and how we'll all have to start applying for jobs when we go back to uni next year, and what are the relative benefits of translation versus interpretation, and blah blah blah etc etc etc...
I really couldn't care less.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm interested for their sakes, but it really would make me so happy never to do a 'normal' job again. I just can't see myself applying for all these language-graduate jobs that I know I don't really want to do.
I know I've said this before, but I'm really feeling it lately - other people are so psyched to be in Russia and they want to spend their whole lives here - I like it, but I don't want to stay and I certainly don't want to work here.
I want writing to be my job. I want to wake up in the morning and have a certain number of pages to write that day.
That's pretty much all I want.
Oh, except it would be great if the stuff I was writing was making me phenomenally rich, but that goes without saying...
To that end, I really am trying harder to discipline myself. The last few weeks I've been writing original material more steadily than I have been for ages. If I really put my back into it I know I could write more.
I can do it. And I will do it.
Watch me.